What do I know about military life? Not a whole lot. I just got married and moved on base a little over 3 months ago.
Never did I ever imagine I would someday be a “Military Wife”. I always thought I’ll find a guy who will settle down with me as close to my family and friends as possible. But I didn’t choose the military life, I just happened to fall in love with a guy who was joining the marines and there wasn’t much I could do about it.
I haven’t quite earned the title of “Marine Wife” or “Military Wife” yet. It just seems so soon to quite consider myself that. I haven’t endured the long distance part since we’ve been married, which hasn’t been long. I haven’t endured a deployment… YET. The most I’ve been away from my husband has been several days and that’s only because he was in the field for some training.
The past couple months have been nothing but CRAZY. Moving in my new home, trying to accommodate to my new lifestyle, trying to find a job, homesick 24/7, and not to mention the hardships of marriage.
I have been dealing with anxiety and loneliness the whole time I’ve been down here. It’s not easy for an introvert like me to make friends and “put myself out there.” I constantly put on a brave face when I go home and say “I’m great. I love it there”, but inside I’m crying for someone to notice my pain.
Lately, I’ve put myself in the word of God. Allowing God to fight this battle within me, hoping that things will get easier with time.
This was a verse from my devotional a couple weeks ago, it really opened my eyes. I was struggling with trusting God and having faith that he knows what’s really best for me. I have to trust him and know that this is all part of his plan.
“Listen to advice and accept discipline, and at the end you will be counted among the wise. Many are the plans in a person’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails.”
Proverbs 19:20-21 NIV