Let me just go ahead and tell you, I am the worst at holding grudges. You could have said something mean to me 3 or 4 years ago and I still remember. Whatever you said will constantly stick in my mind.
I’ve always battled with just letting go of my anger. Letting go of that kid in school that called me fat or ugly. Letting go of someone who told me I had a unibrow in 6th grade. I could keep going, that’s just an example of how ridiculous and petty it is.
I am 19 years old and I’ve finally came to my senses about my pettiness. Some people would say “wow, did you just call yourself petty?” Yes, I did. It’s so petty of myself to be like that.
The other day, I had a girl from high school (who was honestly my best friend) text me and try to be a friend but because of my anger, I reacted the wrong way. I was very rude and inconsiderate of her and her feelings.
She simply said “Hey Mik! I just wanted to check in on you, and I hope you’re doing good. I wanted to let you know that I’m always here if you want to talk!” Then me in my moody attitude said “Thank you.” Then she processed to say “I really miss you and enjoyed your friendship. I know we are miles apart but I want you to know that I’m always here for you!”
In that moment, I could have told her how I really felt, that I missed our friendship too and we should really get together sometime. But my anger got the worst of me, I was very unkind and reacted very irrational.
That’s the moment I realized how these grudges are hurting me a lot more than other people. I could have all these good friends but every time they text me I close them out because of something petty they did forever ago.
Sometimes it’s hard to let go, but holding onto that grudge isn’t going to change the fact that it happened. Come to terms with what happened. Realize it’s over with. That way, you can truly move on.
“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”
Ephesians 4:32 NIV