She may be gone, but my Grandma still shapes my world.

“I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday and the days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and your picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake from which I’ll never part. God has you in his arms. I have you in my heart.”

The past couple days, I was having a hard time thinking of an subject to blog about. Then all of a sudden, I thought of you.

Mamaw Joda; such a beautiful, independent, intelligent woman.

This women was amazing in every way, granted I wasn’t even a year old when she passed away. I still feel like I know her.

In some situations, I am conflicted and I just think “What would Mamaw Joda do?” Sometimes I feel like she answers me. She gives me a simple little push in a certain way and then I find my way from there.

There are numerous occasions when I sit back and think about all the accomplishments or events she missed; my first steps, first day of kindergarten, cheerleading competitions, proms, graduations, my wedding, seeing my kids one day.

It hurts so much to know that she couldn’t make it to any of these events, but I know she is there in spirit and she’s watching over us.

There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t wish I could hug your neck and tell you how much you’re missed, or just have a simple conversation with you.

Thank you for raising my mom to be the most incredible mother ever. If it wasn’t for her, I wouldn’t be where I am today. She is beautiful, selfless, and intelligent. You would definitely be proud of the woman she is today.

If you could see me today, I hope you would see a person you are proud of and someone that has grown into half the woman you were.

I can’t wait to see you again someday, but for now you’ll be in my heart.

Until we meet again, Mamaw Joda.


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